This letter comes to you with utmost urgency, as you await execution for your murder conviction. Your lost habit of self-analysis has made you a stranger to yourself and alienated from others. Your dearly beloved Maman has died, yet your reaction to her death shows you have become detached from human emotion and feeling. As you said, "I probably did love Maman, but that didn't mean anything. At one time or another all normal people have wished their loved ones were dead" (Camus 65). You have killed a complete "stranger," without provocation, which shows you have become lost to yourself and to God. Before your execution I appeal to you to renounce your existential feelings and embrace God's forgiveness and redemption.
You have become removed from human feeling in your personal and social life, which makes you believe there is no meaning in human existence. You cannot even concern yourself with the news of your mother's death, "Maman died today. Or yesterday, maybe, I don't know" (Camus 3). You remain indifferent to this event that has a powerful emotional impact on most human beings, primarily because you lack love and genuine human contact in your life. This makes you believe there is no purpose or meaning to existence and that we live in a godless world.
One of the reasons you most think we live in a godless world is because your friends have also strayed from God. The "warehouse guard" Raymond is much more capable of passion than you, but it is driven by anger and physical violence is often the result (Camus 28). The fact that Raymond is prone to "live off women" and thinks he has the right to cow anyone into physical submission to have his way has been a bad example for you (Camus 28). Chances are, if you did not know Raymond, you would never have engaged in a fight with the Arab you killed, a near-stranger who did no harm to you.
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