of her diary. Bendrix has been jealous of her for some time, convinced that when she ended the affair with him it had to be because of another man. He learns that this is not the case, discovering that his "rivals" are God and the Catholic Church. Sarah is the first to begin questioning her agnosticism. She prays to God during the bombing of the house in which she and Bendrix are meeting and promises that if they are spared, she will end the affair and dedicate herself to God. That is precisely what she does, joining the Catholic Church and finding true faith to replace the faith of desperation she flaunted when the bombs were falling. Sarah's questions about God actually begin long before the bombs start to fall. She had been using Bendrix's love to fill a void in her life, although she could see that for Bendrix the affair was even more important, becoming an obsession that included the past, the present, and the future: "His love is like a medieval chastity belt: only when he is there, with me, in me, does he feel safe" (Greene 111). She describes the void that exists without this affair as a desert and wonders: "If one could believe in God, would he fill the desert?" (Greene 111).
For Sarah, God does indeed fill the desert. This offends Bendrix, who tries, unpersuasively, to get Sarah to come back to him. Her death does not end his longing for her or his growing u
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